Life sucks...

Ojojoj....life really sucks sometimes...or at least it feels like it...when the one you really really like don't say a word to you for ages or so it seems...well actually it's just like a day or so...but in the land of love that's forever...hahaha...so here I go again feeling unwanted, unloved and unthinkable (meaning he doesn't think of me...hahaha) ...well it really sucks being me...and I wouldn't wish that upon anyone...sure I've had my moments but honestly the bad moments are far more...unfortunately...so of course I wonder...why me? What have I done to deserve this? Was I too slow when they handed out the good lives or what? I didn't run as fast as the others...sigh...it sure feels like it...and you know what...up until about 4 months ago everything went along fine...sure I felt lonely and so but I could handle it...but then I met this man and everything changed...it's not like he didn't bring some light into my life because he did...perhaps too much...I feel so good in his company...it is almost scary actually...I haven't felt so good with anyone...and yet he can't be mine...and he probably never will either....he will never leave his gf...I know this even if he have never said it straight out, I still know...but you know one thing....this is one thing that I more than gladly wouldn't mind being wrong about...but since I'm rarely wrong about things (hahaha) that wouldn't be very likely...so this is my life...feeling sad and blue...being without him...I guess I just have to accept it...but I don't want too...I want to fight..but I don't really know how too...it's just not that he's already taken he has to be so very far away from me too which makes it even harder...so I was thinking...ok so I stop sending him sms and let him make the move and contact me...just to realise I can't wait that long...oh man how it hurts...why?? I don't understand...

"This doesn’t work
Anymore
I like him
I do
And perhaps
He likes me too
But still
There’s something
In between
A love he feels
For someone else
A love I cannot have
And honestly believe
I never will
It feels sad
It hurts
Because of all
The feelings
I have
That will never
Be returned…"

Oh please just send me a little sms to say that you miss me, or think of me och long for me...well anything really...please...(aren't I pathetic so say?)...

puss puss p...