In the early morning...

Hello....it's in the middle of the night or in the early morning, depending on how you see it... :)...anyway I should be asleep because I have to get up tomorrow and be nice to people...but I just had to get out some of the things I'm thinking of...it's too bad really that the person that should read this never will...he can't have this address because it might fall into the wrong hands so to say...and I don't want that...but he should really need to read this...so that he got to know what goes on inside my mind...perhaps something would change although I don't think so but one can only hope...I wish that I could have such power that for once in my life I would get what I wanted...and need...and I know needs me as well...
Ok...so let's talk about her for a moment...I really don't know her...I barely knows what she looks like and I'm sure she is a nice person...just not the right person...ok ok I know I know....I can't know that since I don't know her....but actually I do know that...since I really feel that I am the right person for him...so how can she be? It's logical...think about it...there is one out there for everyone...and I really think that we are the ones for each other...
What we, me and him, need is to spend time together...to really get to know each other...we do know each other but we need more...and I'd like to have unlimited time with him...I actually do want to go through every mood he can have just so that I can get to know him...I'm not walking on clouds here...I don't go around thinking he is flawless...I know he has his faults as we all do...God knows I have mine...but i like him anyway...with all of his faults...as I hope that he one day will like me with all of mine...but we need time to discover each other and how to solve it if a conflict would arise...I don't know if we ever will get that time...and that is frustrating not knowing....I like him so much that my heart aches...and that can't be good right? I want this man, I want him for the rest of my life...I want to help him and I am positiv to the fact that I actually believe that I would be good for him...I would have a good influence on him and God knows he sure could need some of that right now...he needs me...in more ways than one...and more than he realises too...
I know that I just have to wait and see what happens...but I'm not sure that I want to just sit here and wait...but I can't really date other guys either....not when all I can think of is him...when I compare everyone with him...or to be correct actually...i don't even see anyone else...even if they would be right in front of me I don't see them because all I see is him...love can really be a curse sometimes...and a bliss other times...it really is a fine line between love and hate...
Well to all you out there who are lucky enough to have found someone...hang on to him/her.....don't let them go and enjoy love and all that comes with it...i just wish I could be one of those people...

puss puss p... I like you more than I can say...