Oh my…here I go again…another long and sad evening…oh well...I have decided to once again give up…I’m not cut out for this game…I get too emotional…and it’s hard when you don’t get the respond you want and need.
And it’s not his fault either…I won’t blame him…I can only blame myself…I like him too much to ever think anything bad about him…and he really is doing the best he can…and then if doing his best is not being with me…then perhaps after all this wasn’t meant to be…perhaps someone really was just playing a joke on me…it sure feels like that…I guess I just have to accept it…and by any chance luck would come my way I sure would be surprised…happy but surprised…
But as it is now…actually I’m really starting to wonder if this wasn’t just a spur of the moment…a fun thing at the right moment and now when that moment have passed…what’s left? Just a clinging girl who’s starting to be plain boring and a pain in the butt? He has a life already…why would he wanna trade it for a better one? Hahaha he would so not like this if he was reading it…I’m sure he wouldn’t like reading anything on this blog…and that’s why he don’t have the address… :)
Anyway…”How can you know that it would be a better life?” you might think…well for the simple reason that it would be with me… :D …hahaha…well cut me some slack here…I have to have a little bit of self-confidence…I have to believe that I am the best thing for him…that I’m a great person over all… so sometimes I have express some self-confident if not so only for my own well-being….
"My dear Snugglepuff,
Should we stop?
Have we realised that
This really isn’t such
A good idea?
We don’t talk as much
Anymore.
Maybe I was just right
For the moment
And now I’m,
Yesterday’s news
And you can go
Back to the
Familiar again
And I will just
Fade away.
I like you so very much
Actually so much
I can’t really put
Words on how much
It’s confusing..."
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