Monday, what a sad day...

So...monday night and I'm all alone...earlier today came the first sms from Him saying that he wanted to come over to get his keys to his apartment...just his bad luck then that I wasn't home... :) hahaha

I had a really nice time out last Saturday...eventhough I might have gotten a little bit too drunk...but it went fine anyway...so that I must do again...ok...not the too-much-drinking part though but the going out to a club part and meeting new people...my goal to getting so drunk that I wouldn't think of Him...kind of worked...but then the aftermath came and yesterday I didn't feel so good for many reasons actually...

Life really sucks now...everything sucks....nothing is fun anymore and there is nothing to look forward too either...I don't know what to do really...
Why can't it be my turn to be happy? But oh no...that would be a really stupid idea...*sigh*... I think I stand by that...love is just overrated...it doesn't really exist...it's just some sort of mass hypnosis...people are just imagining...and then there are a few that are totally immune and apparently I'm one of them... :(

Oh well...I have to go to bed now...probably thinking of him...as I always seem to do lately...and why really? He doesn't want me naymore...when am I going to get that into my thick head? Will I ever? I know at least that we have to talk...he needs to answer a few questions of mine...in order for me to understand...I know that he doesn't think that we have anything to talk about but that's where he's wrong..but then on the other hand he thinks he's free too...and yet he's so whipped by his ex that he can't see it... so really what do I want him for then?
Well because during the time we got together before the ex from hell came and ruined everything...I got to see the real him and how wonderful he can be...and that is who I want...I don't want the whipped version...I want the real version...
But sadly...apparently the real version has nothing to say in the matter and the ex wins once again...*sigh*

My heart aches for him...I liked him more than I thought...puss på dig J....