Abandoned...

I feel a little bit abandoned right now...none of the people I want to talk to wants to talk to me...I feel alone...I really feel like I have no friends...and especially none that are special...*sigh* what to do?
It's really hard when you want company and got none...usually I do just fine on my own and don't need anyone to talk to really...but right now I feel like I really need someone to talk to and there is none...I think it can have something to do with my somewhat broken heart...what do you think?
Well later today my best friend is coming down here to visit me from the big city...and we are going to party and I'm going to get so drunk that I forget why I'm so sad...or I'll probably won't forget it but still...I can try...

I still want him... :(