Silence...

Ok...so now it's all quiet again...and it feels like it was forever since I talked to Him...but in fact it was only like 2 days ago...but still...why haven't he even sent me an sms? And he's not online either...and I don't want to crack and be the first to send an sms...I want to show him that I can funtion without him...even though it's hard...real hard....I think I need to forget about him....it's the only way...try to make myself busy so that I don't think about him...but how can I when all I have to do is listen to his music and I'm sucked back in again...oh...I haven't told you...he's sings and plays the guitar and he does it really good too...even though he doesn't think so...but what does he know? I think it's great and I love to listen to it too....because it feels like he's talking to me...and that makes me all warm inside...
I wonder if he really...I mean really know how much I like him and how he makes me feel....I don't think so...he thinks he does...but I don't think so... but really what difference does it make? None! Because he won't leave his gf anyway...he's too afraid...hey look I'm not saying it will be a walk in the park being with me... or with him either...but I'm willing to take that chance...I jsut wish he was too...because the way I see it...his current relationship doesn't seems to be too healty...I wonder what he gets out of it? But I'm not sure that I can ask such a question...oh well...life sucks...at least for some peole....some have it all good the lucky bastards....and then there's me....and my life isn't so good right now...but I hope yours are...
I will go to bed now...hoping that I at least can dream some nice dreams about a nicer life...

puss puss p... I need you...I really do...