Gaps?

Ok...so there are small gaps between the entries...oh well...perhaps it means that I'm starting to move away...or just that I don't want to repeat myself too many times... :).. probably the last one... but it's true...I do repeat myself alot...and I know that...but then on the other hand I did explain in the first entries that I was going to write down my confused thoughts and so I do...and they're really confusing sometimes...right? :) but then on the other hand...I don't really think that there are so many that reads this so...what different does it makes? It really is just for me to air my thoughts...
Because nothing will change just because I write it down...now will it? No, he will still be with her and I will still be alone...longing for him...which is stupid...I know, I know...but hey...as I have said probably a hundred times before...love makes you do stupid things...and you can't help who you fall in love with...
but I will try to stop having the feelings for him...and I will just be a friend...the best one he can have so that he'll never want to be without me...and then he'll see what he didn't want...
Life will go on...I know this...even if it's hard to understand sometimes...oh how I wish my life could be a little bit more exciting...
I want things to happen....I want to be loved and to love back....but apparently that's not for me...

Oh well....I have these feelings and they won't go away just like that...I'll try to make them but...

puss puss p... I really do like you more than I can say...