Summertime...

It's summer now...and the gaps between the entries are getting wider and wider...perhaps I'm starting to feel drained...I don't know what to say any more....the feelings are still there and so...but I'm not getting any younger so I can not just go around waiting for something that never will happen...I know this and still it feels so hard to just let go...

I need to find someone that actually wants my love, that actually want me to care for them as one does when one is in love, that want to spend every waken moment with me and the ones when we are asleep too, that want to hear what I have to say whenever I want to say it, that love me for the way that I am and not for the way that I can be, that long for me as much as I long for him, that want to share his everyday life with me and want to share mine too, that care for me...just simply...I need to find someone that can love me and only me...because I want exclusivity...I want to be the one...
Is that too much to ask for?
No? Well...Where is he then?

puss puss p... you're in my heart and my head more that you think....oh how I wish things were different...