Times are Changing...

Hello everybody...still there? Still reading my blog? I hope so for now it's in for a real change...it wont be so dull and sad anymore....I don't think...now it will be more like other blogs... :) because you see, my friends....something have happened...something unexpected but very, VERY nice.... :)
I went out partying some last friday...something that I haven't done really for many many years...but I had so much fun you can't believe it...it was just me and a friend but we ended up talking to a bunch of guys that was fun and nice...and as the evening went on one of the guys had called his friend to come and pick him up for he wanted to go home....and it was my luck that he did...because his friend was the one I've been waiting for (without knowing it though)...from the first moment I saw him I realise that it was something special about him...he got my attention right away...and to make a long story short...I ended up with him at the end of the night...and now about 4 days later I still can't believe my luck...I'm so glad that I have met him and now I just have to wait and see how it will turn out...I hope for the best of course...it feels like he likes me so...and I definately like him...more and more actually the more I think of him...we spent pretty much the weekend together...and it feels so good...and I'm so happy...much happier than I have been for weeks...and I will give this guy all my attention...because he deserves it and I want to give it a shoot...because who knows where this will lead... :)

So...from now on this will be a much happier blog...a more normal one perhaps...not so obsessive about something I can't have anyway...and actually now I don't want it anymore either...now when I have seen that there are other fishes in the sea...fishes that are free to chose, that are single....and that actually choose me...
But still...I wouldn't want to erase these past months with all it's emotions and thoughts...because I think that meeting the guy that this blog use to be about, the one that all the previous entries are about have helped me to see things in a different perspective and perhaps that was the meaning for meeting him too...but I just want to say that I won't be worrying about not getting him anymore...because I can clearly see that it wasn't meant to be...and that is ok...and actually it kinda feels like a relief that having realised that...and in a way I feel free again...I still like him and I will be his friend but nothing more...I won't jeopardise this new thing I have going...because this new thing is something else...something more real...and I'm so happy... :)

Well, I guess that's all I have to say for now... :)....but I think I'll be back...so have a fun time and carpe diem...

puss pa dig pussgurkan min.....

Summertime...

It's summer now...and the gaps between the entries are getting wider and wider...perhaps I'm starting to feel drained...I don't know what to say any more....the feelings are still there and so...but I'm not getting any younger so I can not just go around waiting for something that never will happen...I know this and still it feels so hard to just let go...

I need to find someone that actually wants my love, that actually want me to care for them as one does when one is in love, that want to spend every waken moment with me and the ones when we are asleep too, that want to hear what I have to say whenever I want to say it, that love me for the way that I am and not for the way that I can be, that long for me as much as I long for him, that want to share his everyday life with me and want to share mine too, that care for me...just simply...I need to find someone that can love me and only me...because I want exclusivity...I want to be the one...
Is that too much to ask for?
No? Well...Where is he then?

puss puss p... you're in my heart and my head more that you think....oh how I wish things were different...

I just have a question...

What is Love?